This week i had a great paradigm shift in my perspective of fear-- 3 parts series.
Yup! great learnings thru my first 2 weeks of work.

Well.. largely due to the arduous nature of my job but more of it is because of how Satan deceived me over and over again, instilling fear and making me cringe over, nth. Well, the kind of fear that I had was never so taxing on me, ever. I never used to have such fears not even the cold sweat type. For a moment, I felt defeated, I din have the courage to do anything and in fact i felt like raising the white flag and just quit my situation.

So this week, i learnt. I learnt to realign my perspective on fear, trust me, i wish it was only that easy. But thank God for his holy spirit, he has been whispering much to me. I am so hearten when i hear him say, there is nothing/no one u need to be afraid of except me. I was like allright. I AM COVERED, my backside!

That was episode 1, the next episode God spoke to me was in service where he said... the only pursuit I should have is to be loving him all the days of my life. This is crazy! Sincerely, I was like God..u noe i love you ya? haha. den he went on... He encouraged me and say that I should not be led by how the world wants me to be, rather, i should be the one leading the world towards Jesus and helping them to be more Christ-like. So quit the human pursuit of the 5c's and on..

The logic is this: at the end of it all, u can't get close to God with all ur wealth and possessions and titles u build on Earth, and it is so EXHAUSTING to keep earning ur time with God. It is such a chase, and u can never have enuff of it. The only way near God is to lay down everything and come clean before him--it is not saying God I am a CEO of ABC Co. Here I am, speak to me. hahah. guess what? Wrong password, it is not gonna work!~

the only way to God--keep simple, keep hungry, keep nothing except ur heart ready to listen.
it is saying, God, I am your child, keep me humble, speak to me. ^^

and finally, in the 3rd episode, it was in our monthly ulm that God speaks and reinforces the principle, i.e. fear is a constant companion in life. There is no way to subdue fear, that's why courage is the essential ingredient in life. So rich in truth. ^^ I wish I was that wise at that point in time, so this is alarming cause this just means that I need to STICK even closer to God.

His very word: Don't allow your fear to rob you of what God has crafted and designed you to do.

Hence, this week at work, I wanna apply what I have learnt and those that he has added courage to me. I want to see and seize the opportunity. I do not want to live with fear. I want to step out courageously, be so sensitive to the HS, hearing all that he has to say, and abiding in every step.

Help me Lord, I want to stick closer to u so I may know you are near.
Pray for me dear friends.
I also need to see a great call as to why i am here.
Lord, show me pls.